I sometimes abuse ampersands

I've just realized that Merlin/Harry* is literally the mishmash of my two OTPs from the Criminal Minds fandom (Garcia/Reid and Hotch/Rossi). What can I say. I have types. When several collide in one pairing, I'm doomed.

* The way they are often written. From their 50 seconds of shared screen time, one could basically infer pretty much anything, but that's a common fandom reading.

erebusodora, who is absolutely incredibly amazing, earlier drew EldritchHorror!Harry and BAMF!Merlin from the monsters are alright, and today she added another gorgeous tentacled Harry to the collection. I'm hyperventilating and clutching my laptop to my bosom. And licking my screen. OMG, this day just got 186% better.

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All the firsts this fandom pushed me into!* First time juggling 2 WIPs: check.

and all that tosh (Merlin/Harry/James!Lancelot, pre-canon, NC-17, 3/5)
By nature as well as by choice, James is not prone to stopping at half-measures. Even he, however, would agree that falling in love with not one but two of his superiors was taking it a bit too far. It’s unclear whether the fact that said superiors are as good as married to each other makes it better or worse.

(Doing this to figure out if I can figure out the dynamics within a threesome. Not happy with the results so far, but am I ever happy with anything?)

A/B/O dystopia, so far kinkmeme only because I have neither a title nor a summary (Harry/Merlin, ~2,300 words in, planned out till ch5 (I'm at 1.5 chapters thus far), and then I'll hopefully wing it)

(well, I kind of have a provisional title: zugzwang, unless I come up with something better; if I don't, all my A/B/Os will have chess titles, and I don't even play chess. I mean, as a good Ukrainian girl, I was kinda taught to when I was 5, but I was taught by someone who has a PhD in maths and 0 pedagogical talent, so I'm still scarred by the experience, 20+ years later XD)

(Doing this to figure out if I can plot. Also, there are things in it that make me happy: planned, but not written yet, and they are not even kinky *doing it wrong*)


* Other firsts: (1) writing 1,000+ words a day for months; (2) writing in English; (3) consistently writing things longer than a random drabble; (4) enjoying writing explicit smut; (5) writing character-driven rather than intellectual construct-driven stuff; (6) reading and writing A/B/O; (7) developing actual pairing-specific kinks (within the context of Harry/Merlin, fisting makes me very happy; also, handjobs; there's definitely a theme there); (8) having my fics translated!!! (9) being offered fanart!!! (10) sadly, this is the first fandom I got stuck in that is fully tumblr-based, and tumblr is So The Worst Idea Ever for me, but this minor glitch fades compared to all the good stuff.

(Well, 1, 2, 3 and 5 is probably down to the general state of me rather than to Kingsman specifically, because this is the first year in my life when my social anxiety has eased off somewhat, and it feels absolutely amazing. Granted, "everybody hates me for spamming their AO3 rss feeds with my dreck, and judges me for all the OOCness and stuff" is still very much the background noise in my head, but I got better at reminding myself that my enjoyment of it matters too, and, in fact, is enough.)